An Open Letter to My Kids

As we prepare to welcome our new addition, baby Sawyer, to our happy family, I have mixed emotions. I sit here peering out the window watching the three of you play and I feel more blessed than ever to be your mom. The thought that one more little precious person will call me mommy as well,  overwhelms me. Growing up, I always thought I knew how my life would play out. I'd be married to a wonderful man and have a son and a daughter. The perfect family of four, just like I had growing up. However, I have come to learn that our God is greater, our God stronger...our God is higher than any other. God had a different plan entirely. He blessed me with an amazing man that I couldn't be happier to call my husband and the daddy of my children...my four children. But, God double the love he knew I had in me. He has given me two more babes than I thought I wanted. I have THREE bouncing boys and one beautiful little girl that I get to call my best friend. The bond I have with each of you is so different from one another but equally so very special. You three-Ethan, Corbin and Taya, are my world. You bring me so much joy. More joy than I think I deserve at times. 

Ethan - I love your sense of purpose. I love that you think you're unstoppable. The determination you have inspires me. I look forward to seeing you grow into a great young man.

Corbin - You are one amazing athlete. You succeed at everything you do. You impress me on a daily basis. There really is nothing you can't do. 

Princess Taya - You are one spunky little girl. A little girl that has my whole heart. I love that one minute you are telling it like it is, sassing me and the next you're snuggled up in my arms. 

I'm nervous about the future and having another baby to raise but when I look at you three, I see hope and the promise of a happy, fulfilling life. The happiness that only the three (four) of you can give. I think about how much I love each of you and how fulfilling being your mom really is. I can't wait to share that love with your baby brother. I can't wait to make great memories with Sawyer as well.

So...here we go. Our family of five is soon becoming a whopping family of six. And, I wouldn't have it any other way.

  

-With all my love....to infinity and beyond,

Mom, Momma, Mommy

An Open Letter to Matt

Here we are...fifteen years, three weeks and a day after we said "I do", anticipating the arrival of our FOURTH child. A son. Another little being to care for and adore. Another little man that will look up to you and think you, of all people, hang the moon. 

Another apprentice to watch your every move. One more guy to teach how to throw the ball, turn a wrench, fix a flat, pitch a tent and so many more things I can't wait to see. You are and have always been an amazing daddy. First, with Ethan and Corbin and then with princess Taya. You are a hero in all their eyes. You are a hero in my eyes. The man that makes us smile when we're sad, giggle when we're sick and hope when we're down. You make us all believe we can accomplish anything. You encourage us to dream big and reach for nothing less than the stars. 

You bring so much laughter and happiness. The way you live life. You hold nothing back. You see the best in everyone you meet. You don't have an enemy in the world. At least not in my eyes. You, to me...to us, are pure joy. You are the picture of what a husband and more importantly what a daddy should be. You are teaching our sons how to treat their lady. Teaching Taya how to expect to be treated by her man. You show me on a daily basis how to be a better friend, mommy and person. 

After so many years, so many ups, so many downs, there is not a single minute on earth I would trade for what we've had and the life we've made. Our kids are well rounded, polite, kind, big hearted little people that you and I can be proud of.

The amount of love we share for Ethan, Corbin and Taya is immeasurable. The love we will share for Sawyer is unstoppable. My love for you is unconditional. 

I know we have many years still ahead filled with both happy and sad times but together, with the love, laughter and support of our precious family, we will make it. 

I truly do love you, Matt...to the moon and back.