When I think back on the past twelve years I'm amazed with the life I have. The husband that makes me whole. The children that make me complete.
I've learned(with the help of my "crazy" pills) to relax more and treasure the "ordinary" days. The ordinary moments. The uneventful days that start off with cinnamon rolls for breakfast and end with story time and prayers after dark. The jam-packed days filled with school, homework and numerous sports activities. And everyday in between.
I've learned that no matter what I'm doing or how busy I think I am, if a hug needs to be given, or even be gotten, to stop and relish in the moment. I've learned that pretty soon my eldest will rather be with his friends than me. That the time of embarrassing him just being in his presence is looming near.
But most of all, I've learned that no matter how hard I try, I can't keep my son a baby, a child forever. He is going to grow. He is going to change. He is going to become his own individual person.
Ethan is spunky. Witty. Determined. He is hard headed, stubborn and independent. He's a complete combination of both Matt and I. He's big brother to two. An inspiration to many.
He was the first to call me mom. The first to call me mean. The first to say "I love you". The first to say "I hate you". The first to melt my heart. The first to break it. The first to totally consume me with more love than I ever knew possible. That will always be true and will never change. He was the first to completely steal my heart. Every time I look into those big brown eyes I see the cutest baby boy ever, I see the handsome young man he is becoming.
It amazes me that we have hit the pre-teen years and next year he will be all teenager.
I see a future full of hope, desire and love. I look forward to what will be.
He is and will always be my baby boy. He will always be my heart and soul.
Happy birthday, Ethan. You and your love make my life complete.
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